C is now available for adoption by L!!! IT's been almost a year that C has been in limbo with abondonment charges against his mother. He's been tossed back and forth, he's ha visitation then no visitation... but now, as of 4pm on Friday, 26.Jan, 2007, Christian's mothers rights were terminated.
I want to say now that I don't advocate terminating everyone's parental rights when they enter in the system, but this woman bondoned her 5 children, gave the 6th up for adoption, all of the children's fathers were illegals except her little girl. She was gone for something like 8 months before school officials firugred out something was wrong when the older two children (13 and 15 at the time) were taking turns skipping school to take care of the younger 3 (aged 5, 3.5 and 2 again at the time). This woman had no concern until they said they were going to criminal action, then suddenly she wanted her children back. The 3.5 yr old went to live with his father in Mexico, the 5 yr old lived with L until they could locate her father, to which now she lives happily in FL with her father, and C was the only one left.
After 3 grueling weeks of waiting for the court hearing, the case was heard on 8.Jan, 2007 and we just recieved a ruling!
I am celebrating. L now has 2 boys! 3.5 and 21 months. Both adopted, well C is going to be adopted as soon as it is legally possible!
YAY!!!!!!
29 January 2007
28 January 2007
Does this sound about right?
one of my goals this year is to begin the money fundraising. I was adding up how much it'd cost based on the rough sketch they give on teh CWA first planners thingy.. like before you sign with them they give you some numbers... I chose worse case scenario but only wiht like one return ticket.. as I hope to have such small children it doesn't matter...
Regardless, the amount I came up with is rounded up to just over 46000 USD. Now I know it is tacky to talk direct money, so I'm not asking how much you all paid, what I'm asking is this:
Is 46000 a "good" amount to shoot for in fundraising? I suppose I'm asking if that is a realistic amount.
1820 of that, mind you, is set in a 7 day stay in Moscow, 700 for a oneway ticket back for the children (only one ticket.. as I plan on having a lapchild and a seat incase) and 1000 for all my apostiling.
This is all pretty much worst case scenario money, but I wnat to be prepared and be happy to have a bit left over.
So those who have been there. Does 46000 seem a reasonable number in bringing home two children from Russian under the age of 3?
Regardless, the amount I came up with is rounded up to just over 46000 USD. Now I know it is tacky to talk direct money, so I'm not asking how much you all paid, what I'm asking is this:
Is 46000 a "good" amount to shoot for in fundraising? I suppose I'm asking if that is a realistic amount.
1820 of that, mind you, is set in a 7 day stay in Moscow, 700 for a oneway ticket back for the children (only one ticket.. as I plan on having a lapchild and a seat incase) and 1000 for all my apostiling.
This is all pretty much worst case scenario money, but I wnat to be prepared and be happy to have a bit left over.
So those who have been there. Does 46000 seem a reasonable number in bringing home two children from Russian under the age of 3?
27 January 2007
a decision
After talking to a fost-adopt mum here in KY, I hace decided to enter into that program.
I am not ending my goals of adopting from Russia and do plan to go ahead as soon as possible, but I know I am ready to be a parent now.
I have wanted to be a foster parent for some time, and this is one way to go about it. but I do know that I will continue my plan for adopting from Russia as son as i turn 23.
Okay, that being said... I'm apartment hunting tomorrow! Woo!
I am not ending my goals of adopting from Russia and do plan to go ahead as soon as possible, but I know I am ready to be a parent now.
I have wanted to be a foster parent for some time, and this is one way to go about it. but I do know that I will continue my plan for adopting from Russia as son as i turn 23.
Okay, that being said... I'm apartment hunting tomorrow! Woo!
26 January 2007
ganked
You Know You Grew Up In The 80's If... (I bolded the ones I remember.. as I was an '85 baby)
1. You've ever ended a sentence with the word "PSYCHE".
2. You watched the Pound Puppies.
3. You can sing the rap to the "Fresh Prince of Belair " ...and can do the "Carlton".
4. Girls wore biker shorts under their skirts and felt stylishly sexy. (I never wore them, but I remember thinking my older cousins were AWESOME for doing that!)
5. You yearned to be a member of the Baby-sitters club and tried to start a club of your own.
6. You owned those lil' Strawberry Shortcake pals scented dolls.
7. You know that "WOAH " comes from Joey on Blossom.
8. Two words: Hammer Pants.
9. If you ever watched "Fraggle Rock ".
10. You had plastic streamers on your handle bars... and "spokey-dokes" or playing cards on your spokes for that incredible sound effect. (They were the poo man, totally amazing!)
11. You can sing the entire theme song to "Duck Tales". (I have some on tape that I have the kiddos at daycare watch.. they can all sing it!)
12. When it was actually worth getting up early on a Saturday to watch cartoons.
13. You wore a ponytail on the side of your head.
14. You saw the original "Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles " on the big screen... and still know the turtles names. (sadly some of my favourite artists)
15. You got super-excited when it was Oregon Trail day in computer class at school. (Hell yeah! Every tuesday, we typed for 20 misn then played oregon trail for 30!)
16. You made your mom buy one of those clips that would hold your shirt in a knot on the side.
17. You played the game "MASH ". (Mansion, Apartment, Shelter, House)
18. You wore stonewashed Jordache jean jackets and were proud of it.
19. L.A. Gear... need I say more.
20. You wanted to change your name to "JEM " in Kindergarten.
21. You remember reading "Tales of a fourth grade nothing " and all the Ramona books.
22. You know the profound meaning of "WAX ON, WAX OFF".
23. You wanted to be a Goonie.
24. You ever wore fluorescent clothing.
25. You can remember what Michael Jackson looked like before his nose fell off and his cheeks shifted.
26. You have ever pondered why Smurfette was the only female smurf.
27. You took lunch boxes to school... and traded Garbage Pail Kids in the schoolyard.
28. You remember the CRAZE, then the BANNING of slap bracelets. (I still have a nice sized scar from playing slaps with my brothers)
29. You still get the urge to say "NOT " after every sentence.
30. You remember Hypercolor t-shirts.
31. Barbie and the Rockers was your favorite band.
32. You thought She-ra (Princess of Power!) and He-Man should hookup.
33. You thought your childhood friends would never leave because you exchanged handmade friendship bracelets.
34. You ever owned a pair of Jelly-Shoes. (My jelly sandals. I was the coolest kid on the block!)
35. After you saw Pee-Wee's Big Adventure you kept saying "I know you are, but what am I?"
36. You remember "I've fallen and I can't get up"
37. You remember going to the skating rink before there were inline skates.
38. You ever got seriously injured on a Slip and Slide. (remember, they must have WATER on them to work.)
39. You have ever played with a Skip-It. (Neighbourhood skip it champion! Something rediculous like 500 skips in a row in under 10 mins... we had fun competitions that our mothers would organize.)
40. You had or attended a birthday party at McDonalds.
41. You've gone through this nodding your head in agreement.
42. You remember Popples.
43. "Don't worry, be happy"
44. You wore like, EIGHT pairs of socks over tights with high top Reeboks.
45. You wore socks scrunched down (and sometimes still do...getting yelled at by "younger hip" members of the family)
46. "Miss MARY MACK MACK MACK, all dressed in BLACK BLACK BLACK "
47. You remember boom boxes. and walking around with one on your shoulder like you were all that. (I never wore one but my brother did, and he was a break dancer too.)
48. You remember watching both "Gremlins" movies.
49. You know what it meant to say "Care Bear Stare!"
50. You remember watching "Rainbow Bright" and "My Little Pony Tales "
51. You thought Doogie Howser/Samantha Micelli was hot.
52. You remember Alf, the lil furry brown alien from Melmac.
53. You remember New Kids on the Block when they were cool... and don't even flinch when people refer to them as "NKOTB". (Jeoy was my man... Donnie tried to burn down the Galthouse here in Louisville... Ahh I remember hearing he was arrested here and I cried.)
54. You knew all the characters names and their life stories on "Saved By the Bell ", the ORIGINAL class.
55. You know all the words to Bon Jovi - SHOT THROUGH THE HEART.
56. You just sang those words to yourself.
57.You remember watching Magic vs. Bird.
58. Homemade Levi shorts. (the shorter the better)
59. You remember when mullets were cool! (we all had one...)
60. You had a mullet!
61. You still sing "We are the World" (again, another thing I've taught the daycare children.)
62. You tight rolled your jeans.
63. You owned a bannana clip.
64. You remember "Where's the Beef?"
65. You used to (and probably still do) say "What you talkin' about Willis?"
66. You had big hair and you knew how to use it.
67. You're still singing shot through the heart in your head,aren't you!
Ahh how sad.
1. You've ever ended a sentence with the word "PSYCHE".
2. You watched the Pound Puppies.
3. You can sing the rap to the "Fresh Prince of Belair " ...and can do the "Carlton".
4. Girls wore biker shorts under their skirts and felt stylishly sexy. (I never wore them, but I remember thinking my older cousins were AWESOME for doing that!)
5. You yearned to be a member of the Baby-sitters club and tried to start a club of your own.
6. You owned those lil' Strawberry Shortcake pals scented dolls.
7. You know that "WOAH " comes from Joey on Blossom.
8. Two words: Hammer Pants.
9. If you ever watched "Fraggle Rock ".
10. You had plastic streamers on your handle bars... and "spokey-dokes" or playing cards on your spokes for that incredible sound effect. (They were the poo man, totally amazing!)
11. You can sing the entire theme song to "Duck Tales". (I have some on tape that I have the kiddos at daycare watch.. they can all sing it!)
12. When it was actually worth getting up early on a Saturday to watch cartoons.
13. You wore a ponytail on the side of your head.
14. You saw the original "Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles " on the big screen... and still know the turtles names. (sadly some of my favourite artists)
15. You got super-excited when it was Oregon Trail day in computer class at school. (Hell yeah! Every tuesday, we typed for 20 misn then played oregon trail for 30!)
16. You made your mom buy one of those clips that would hold your shirt in a knot on the side.
17. You played the game "MASH ". (Mansion, Apartment, Shelter, House)
18. You wore stonewashed Jordache jean jackets and were proud of it.
19. L.A. Gear... need I say more.
20. You wanted to change your name to "JEM " in Kindergarten.
21. You remember reading "Tales of a fourth grade nothing " and all the Ramona books.
22. You know the profound meaning of "WAX ON, WAX OFF".
23. You wanted to be a Goonie.
24. You ever wore fluorescent clothing.
25. You can remember what Michael Jackson looked like before his nose fell off and his cheeks shifted.
26. You have ever pondered why Smurfette was the only female smurf.
27. You took lunch boxes to school... and traded Garbage Pail Kids in the schoolyard.
28. You remember the CRAZE, then the BANNING of slap bracelets. (I still have a nice sized scar from playing slaps with my brothers)
29. You still get the urge to say "NOT " after every sentence.
30. You remember Hypercolor t-shirts.
31. Barbie and the Rockers was your favorite band.
32. You thought She-ra (Princess of Power!) and He-Man should hookup.
33. You thought your childhood friends would never leave because you exchanged handmade friendship bracelets.
34. You ever owned a pair of Jelly-Shoes. (My jelly sandals. I was the coolest kid on the block!)
35. After you saw Pee-Wee's Big Adventure you kept saying "I know you are, but what am I?"
36. You remember "I've fallen and I can't get up"
37. You remember going to the skating rink before there were inline skates.
38. You ever got seriously injured on a Slip and Slide. (remember, they must have WATER on them to work.)
39. You have ever played with a Skip-It. (Neighbourhood skip it champion! Something rediculous like 500 skips in a row in under 10 mins... we had fun competitions that our mothers would organize.)
40. You had or attended a birthday party at McDonalds.
41. You've gone through this nodding your head in agreement.
42. You remember Popples.
43. "Don't worry, be happy"
44. You wore like, EIGHT pairs of socks over tights with high top Reeboks.
45. You wore socks scrunched down (and sometimes still do...getting yelled at by "younger hip" members of the family)
46. "Miss MARY MACK MACK MACK, all dressed in BLACK BLACK BLACK "
47. You remember boom boxes. and walking around with one on your shoulder like you were all that. (I never wore one but my brother did, and he was a break dancer too.)
48. You remember watching both "Gremlins" movies.
49. You know what it meant to say "Care Bear Stare!"
50. You remember watching "Rainbow Bright" and "My Little Pony Tales "
51. You thought Doogie Howser/Samantha Micelli was hot.
52. You remember Alf, the lil furry brown alien from Melmac.
53. You remember New Kids on the Block when they were cool... and don't even flinch when people refer to them as "NKOTB". (Jeoy was my man... Donnie tried to burn down the Galthouse here in Louisville... Ahh I remember hearing he was arrested here and I cried.)
54. You knew all the characters names and their life stories on "Saved By the Bell ", the ORIGINAL class.
55. You know all the words to Bon Jovi - SHOT THROUGH THE HEART.
56. You just sang those words to yourself.
57.You remember watching Magic vs. Bird.
58. Homemade Levi shorts. (the shorter the better)
59. You remember when mullets were cool! (we all had one...)
60. You had a mullet!
61. You still sing "We are the World" (again, another thing I've taught the daycare children.)
62. You tight rolled your jeans.
63. You owned a bannana clip.
64. You remember "Where's the Beef?"
65. You used to (and probably still do) say "What you talkin' about Willis?"
66. You had big hair and you knew how to use it.
67. You're still singing shot through the heart in your head,aren't you!
Ahh how sad.
boredom
I was talking to a lady at work today who I call my Nana. She is the grandmother of one of the kiddos who has deeply touched my heart, and she thinks of me and the lady I teach with as second children (as we are both younger than her son). She asked about my adoptions and told me I was crazy to be going at it single and with the hopes of adopting two. I told her that I have always been one to jump in head first, and I want two because I fear I will never adopt again, especially if I have a rough adoption. then she asked me if she could go with me to russia! I laughed. Sadly I am thinking she may be the only option of a person to go with me.
My mum and I have been arguing constantly about adoption. I am withdrawling from school next semester (if I get to finish this semester even) and have decided to work at the daycare fulltime for one more year, then move on to bigger and better things. She thinks I'm stupid for staying at the daycare, for pulling out of school, and for wanting to adopt all four of my children before I turn 30. It's so frustrating to know that my mum, the woman who supported me through everything, is suddenly turning on me.
The adoption front is going very slowly for me, but I like it that way. In hopefully 6 months I will beo ut on my own, then I can start doing things... getting together with people, meeting adoption people.. meeting with CWA reps constantly... that sort of thing so when I turn 23 I can sign with the agency and go from there. I am so delighted to see another family off blogger with CWA have such a great experience. I need to email her and ask her about the "behind the scenes" type things, but I'm a chickenshit, I know this.
Anyway, off to shower and do the Bible study... I should probalby update on that.. but I'm sorry, this is the dumbest study I've done so far. I can't get into it, no matter how much I try. I despise looking up Bible verse after verse in hopes of understanding. I need a Bible in French... I'm sure I'd understand that much better... to me reading the Bible, even the new one I got, is like reading Latin... and I failed Latin... twice. I am going to stick with it, in hopes of learning something, growing to like it, or something, but all in all, I can't stand it. *insert whining here* I can't stand the people in my class, this old lady, who I respect because she is my elder and had far more amounts of life experience then I, likes to go on tangents about NOTHING! She talks and talks and we rarely get out before 9p because we have a watch a 45-50 min video every class as well. But she loes to talk... and the person hosting the meeting... I just suddenly feel very disconnected with her. She is the reason I took the class, in hopes of rekindling the connection ew've had in the past of really good bible studies, but alas...
And Renee... God that woman makes me want to hurl sharp objects. I was holding A's new baby girl... she's like 5 months old now.. not so baby anymore.. but regardless, I was playing the air game with her (holding her up and giggling at her) and Renee just walked up and snatched her from me. She was all "you get to see babies everyday, my youngest is 6"... All I could do was try not to smart back to her.. but I did tell her that NO, I don't get to hold babies everyday, I work with the twos and lately with the pre k class, who are 4/5. She mouthed off something and I just told baby Maddie that I'd see her on sunday and tried to sneak out as quietly as possible. A could tell I was upset, but Renee, oh no. That woman is so self centered. Makes me want to scream!
*end whining session*
Regardless, I'm enjoying my days iwth the pre-k.. they are fun, but they are 4. Their favourite question is "why?" and their favourite response (that they give when I ask THEM why) is "because I said so"... ahh how they learn.
My mum and I have been arguing constantly about adoption. I am withdrawling from school next semester (if I get to finish this semester even) and have decided to work at the daycare fulltime for one more year, then move on to bigger and better things. She thinks I'm stupid for staying at the daycare, for pulling out of school, and for wanting to adopt all four of my children before I turn 30. It's so frustrating to know that my mum, the woman who supported me through everything, is suddenly turning on me.
The adoption front is going very slowly for me, but I like it that way. In hopefully 6 months I will beo ut on my own, then I can start doing things... getting together with people, meeting adoption people.. meeting with CWA reps constantly... that sort of thing so when I turn 23 I can sign with the agency and go from there. I am so delighted to see another family off blogger with CWA have such a great experience. I need to email her and ask her about the "behind the scenes" type things, but I'm a chickenshit, I know this.
Anyway, off to shower and do the Bible study... I should probalby update on that.. but I'm sorry, this is the dumbest study I've done so far. I can't get into it, no matter how much I try. I despise looking up Bible verse after verse in hopes of understanding. I need a Bible in French... I'm sure I'd understand that much better... to me reading the Bible, even the new one I got, is like reading Latin... and I failed Latin... twice. I am going to stick with it, in hopes of learning something, growing to like it, or something, but all in all, I can't stand it. *insert whining here* I can't stand the people in my class, this old lady, who I respect because she is my elder and had far more amounts of life experience then I, likes to go on tangents about NOTHING! She talks and talks and we rarely get out before 9p because we have a watch a 45-50 min video every class as well. But she loes to talk... and the person hosting the meeting... I just suddenly feel very disconnected with her. She is the reason I took the class, in hopes of rekindling the connection ew've had in the past of really good bible studies, but alas...
And Renee... God that woman makes me want to hurl sharp objects. I was holding A's new baby girl... she's like 5 months old now.. not so baby anymore.. but regardless, I was playing the air game with her (holding her up and giggling at her) and Renee just walked up and snatched her from me. She was all "you get to see babies everyday, my youngest is 6"... All I could do was try not to smart back to her.. but I did tell her that NO, I don't get to hold babies everyday, I work with the twos and lately with the pre k class, who are 4/5. She mouthed off something and I just told baby Maddie that I'd see her on sunday and tried to sneak out as quietly as possible. A could tell I was upset, but Renee, oh no. That woman is so self centered. Makes me want to scream!
*end whining session*
Regardless, I'm enjoying my days iwth the pre-k.. they are fun, but they are 4. Their favourite question is "why?" and their favourite response (that they give when I ask THEM why) is "because I said so"... ahh how they learn.
21 January 2007
MRI and mothers
So in first news tomorrow is my MRI on my knee. My knee is a lovely size of a softball, impossible to bend and all and all just lovely. I am not excited about my MRI tomorrow and truely hope it is an open MRI, not a closed. My mum is going with me, which should make it all.. interesting.
I learned that today my family is a lot like the show "Brothers and Sisters" on ABC. We aren't quite as big, but we are just as dysfunctional... and we do know ho to laugh at eachother. I broke it down by personality types.
My oldest brother Tony is much like Kitty. He is the successful one who lives away, getting ready to buy his own house, very republican, very... just very independent.
Nick is a lot like the brother Thomas. He is very responsible, yet not so much. Has the gf who hopefully will be a wife (whereas Thomas has the preggo wife... not wishing that on my brother, lol), he is just very litteral, yet very much a momma's boy.
I get to be like Kevin, the gay brother. I am not entirely the gay brother, hands down, but I do support and fight for gay rights. But more than that, I'm the youngest, I'm the one who doesn't speak my mind, who gets stuck with everything, yet who finds comfort in my mum being around. IT's quite crazy to see my family on TV.
Speaking of my mother, she's driving me bonkers! She keeps talking about how she'll pay for AI (Artificial insemination) as long as I'd just give her a grandchild "before" she "dies". Sh'es so dramatic! I keep explaining that NO, I do not want to have children biologically until I've adopted, and possibly never. I never wanted bio children, it's just not me. I have no reason to add to the population when I can help children who are already in the population. But she doesn't get that an adopted child is just as much her grandchild like a bio child. She just wants something NOW.
Work is great, life is going pretty good, family is sill crazy and I broke down and called my father to wish him a happy Bday. Haven't heard anything back (not that I thought I would.. going on many years no conact unless forced.. so). I suppose I could have been the princess and sent him a lovely present, but I opted out of that.
Until later,
Hawk
I learned that today my family is a lot like the show "Brothers and Sisters" on ABC. We aren't quite as big, but we are just as dysfunctional... and we do know ho to laugh at eachother. I broke it down by personality types.
My oldest brother Tony is much like Kitty. He is the successful one who lives away, getting ready to buy his own house, very republican, very... just very independent.
Nick is a lot like the brother Thomas. He is very responsible, yet not so much. Has the gf who hopefully will be a wife (whereas Thomas has the preggo wife... not wishing that on my brother, lol), he is just very litteral, yet very much a momma's boy.
I get to be like Kevin, the gay brother. I am not entirely the gay brother, hands down, but I do support and fight for gay rights. But more than that, I'm the youngest, I'm the one who doesn't speak my mind, who gets stuck with everything, yet who finds comfort in my mum being around. IT's quite crazy to see my family on TV.
Speaking of my mother, she's driving me bonkers! She keeps talking about how she'll pay for AI (Artificial insemination) as long as I'd just give her a grandchild "before" she "dies". Sh'es so dramatic! I keep explaining that NO, I do not want to have children biologically until I've adopted, and possibly never. I never wanted bio children, it's just not me. I have no reason to add to the population when I can help children who are already in the population. But she doesn't get that an adopted child is just as much her grandchild like a bio child. She just wants something NOW.
Work is great, life is going pretty good, family is sill crazy and I broke down and called my father to wish him a happy Bday. Haven't heard anything back (not that I thought I would.. going on many years no conact unless forced.. so). I suppose I could have been the princess and sent him a lovely present, but I opted out of that.
Until later,
Hawk
18 January 2007
boredom at work
Normally I can't connect to the internet at work, but today it seems to be working okay *crosses fingers*
It's naptime, and while typing I am still watching my children, but I'm having a great day. All 8 of my kids (6 of which are two and 2 are 3) who are here are doing pretty darn good today (sans one little girl going through the first part of the terrible threes) and they are all actually asleep. Now anyone who has worked in a daycare knows the idea of all 8 two year olds asleep is rare... but let me take you a step further. In the room I'm in now, there are twos, threes, and fours. EVERY SINGLE child is asleep. This is a photo op so that I don't forget what this looks like.
I heard back from the lady at CWA who is hosting the programme in town on the 15th of march. She seems really cool but obviously doesn't reember me from our other set of emails sent a couple months ago. She stated she loves my email adress (which is odd... normally people remind me of how "highschool" it is), and she was very nice about the fact that I'm over a year out of adopting. She said that she is trying to get a single mother who adopted a little boy from Russia to come to the meeting. I am excited about that.
So I have the CWA free seminar on the15th of March 17th of March (duh me) and now I'm on the CWA mailing list, and I don't think I could be happier. Plans are moving foreward, ideas are jumping ahead and all in all my life is taking off. My brother hasn't sent the information on the ank job yet, but he may. I did promise a few parents I would stay atleast until their kid goes through my class, which sadly is atleast 1.5 years longer here... which may not work. I did have one parent offer me a full time nanny/early education teacher to her child which would pay almost 4 times the amount I make here (which let me assure you comes out to only 20 bucks an hour) but that is still exciting. I figure if I took that route I could do up to 10 children 2 and older... which would satisfy several of my parents, and for 8 hours at 20 bucks an hour for just one kid would be 160 a day... and multiply that by ten... well I'm going off on money issues, which I know is tacky. Regardless, I could be paid well and still get the fun of teaching and being around kids.
It's 2:26 and naptime is over at 2:30.. and I've yet to make marks on any papers... allwell. I tried doing Math homework... and remember why I'd failed that class so many times (3 all together)... I hate math.
Poo BelBel is awake now... I need go make sure she's not tearing off her socks in an attempt to wake up BriBri (yes... severeal girls in my class get the double nickname).
Hope all is well...
I do however want to send out a great congrats to Lia and her husband for becoming the proud parents of two little boys, B and N. CONGRATS!!!!!
Hope all is well in the blogger world.
It's naptime, and while typing I am still watching my children, but I'm having a great day. All 8 of my kids (6 of which are two and 2 are 3) who are here are doing pretty darn good today (sans one little girl going through the first part of the terrible threes) and they are all actually asleep. Now anyone who has worked in a daycare knows the idea of all 8 two year olds asleep is rare... but let me take you a step further. In the room I'm in now, there are twos, threes, and fours. EVERY SINGLE child is asleep. This is a photo op so that I don't forget what this looks like.
I heard back from the lady at CWA who is hosting the programme in town on the 15th of march. She seems really cool but obviously doesn't reember me from our other set of emails sent a couple months ago. She stated she loves my email adress (which is odd... normally people remind me of how "highschool" it is), and she was very nice about the fact that I'm over a year out of adopting. She said that she is trying to get a single mother who adopted a little boy from Russia to come to the meeting. I am excited about that.
So I have the CWA free seminar on the
It's 2:26 and naptime is over at 2:30.. and I've yet to make marks on any papers... allwell. I tried doing Math homework... and remember why I'd failed that class so many times (3 all together)... I hate math.
Poo BelBel is awake now... I need go make sure she's not tearing off her socks in an attempt to wake up BriBri (yes... severeal girls in my class get the double nickname).
Hope all is well...
I do however want to send out a great congrats to Lia and her husband for becoming the proud parents of two little boys, B and N. CONGRATS!!!!!
Hope all is well in the blogger world.
16 January 2007
Nothing really
Work has been horribly lately. I love two year olds, but dammit, these children are killing me. I have the smartest class that I've ever had, even setting up a second cirriculum for my older 4 (and one of my younger ones, oddly enough) and they are doing great, but it's killing me trying to keep up with them. I have nor formal training as a teacher, and sadly now I want to be a teacher even more... but I'm learning that I have to make decisions with adoption in the best mindset.
I have a couple options, and neither of them seem to make me horribly happy. Option one is working for Norton Healthcare. They have an adoption reimbursment programme an dyou get 12 weeks off through FMLA after the completion of an adoption, as well as "materinity leave" for your adoption trips if adopting internationally. Honestly that's the best option.
Option two is working for Chase bank with my brother. I HATE numbers though, my greatest dyslexia is looking at skews of numbers all day. BUT Chase offers pretty much the same thing without the materinity leave, if I'm not mistaken. My brother is supposed to be sending me information.
Obviously I need to pick what is best for me, and for my future family. I need a job that I can make a comfortable living (obviously more than 35000 a year (as I was told that's the minimum requirement for adopting... thought I'm learning many things I was told aren't true.)), but that I can also be happy at. I see that at Norton's because I love the computer, and love computer work. My only problem is... I enjoy working with children.
I live for my job. I wake up grumpy in the mornings, but just walking into work I become this radical morning person. I love getting down and "hanging out" with my kiddos. I enjoy spending my one on one time with them every day (which I make sure to allot 10 mins a child everyday to just catch up on how their night was... and more specifically what they ate and who tucked them in). I ENJOY my life sitting at work, making up lesson plans and knowing that for 9 hours a day atleast all 10 of my children in my class feel loved, are taught discipline, learn, and most importantly know that there are atleast two people in the world who CARE about them. A few of my kiddos come from hard situations. I've had many foster kids who lives were in limbo (one little boy who life still is... until they make a court decision) and I just love the fact that I can be one constant in their little lives of turmoil.
It's not a complex. I know if I wasn't doing it, someone else would. I just enjoy being the person who does it. I enjoy knowing that I bring smiles to faces, the same faces that cry because they sit in time out, and smile when they get the airplane of fruit coming at them.
But I need to also think about the kids I can help when I adopt. The children I will have someday. And knowing that, I can't find a way to stay in a business I LOVE and still make enough money to obtain and support a family. I suppose I could find a "carrer" for a few years... then go back to what I love... but leaving my kiddos...
Growing up sucks, let me state that now! lol. I don't feel like I've had enough time to be a kid, yet I know it's time to grow up... but dammit, I DON'T WANT TO! (How's that? 2 yr old fittish enough? lol.)
Anyways, off to do a bit of HW and email my professors. I can't go to classes tomorrow cause I've done something amazingly horrible to my knee. My PCP told me he doesn't know WHAT I've done, but that I get to go for an MRI sometime this week. It's painful and hurts, but meh. I suppose it could be worse.. (I do get a fancy brace though.. it's hingy!) I've very excited about all this... sadly.
Regardless, Philosophy and Morality awaits me.
14 January 2007
Actual Bible Study
I was incorrect on which Beth Moore Study we are doing in this session of Wednesday night Bible study. We are doing "A Heart Like His", the study of David.
It seems interesting.. hopefully it will be.
Church today... I don't like the Pastor's grouping of "who owns it all"... I'm not big on money sermons.
Regardless, off I go to veg for a while.
13 January 2007
Cinnabon Cheesecake and more
So today Beth and I went to the most POINTLESS daycare training. It was called "songs, fingerplays, and more" and we both thought it sounded awesome! Our first choice to finish off our hours was one called "Multiple intelligence of children" geared twards two year olds. But we ended up going to Applebaum training instead (a personal favourite of both of ours!). Regardless, we went to the 1-4 class, and apparently we missed the earlier class with the lecturing and such. Instead we sat in a room and coloured. Yes, you read that right. A group of daycare teachers/directors/cooks colouring. My friking goodness! I can do that at my center anyday! Why would I go to a training? Because we got "song cards" and "puppet gloves". All stuff Beth and I MAKE for our kids.
Then when the presenter asked me how I liked the class and what I would take away with me... When I gave her my answer, she didn't like it. She very much blasted my idea of letting the kids play with the gloves by saying over and over again, "These are not made for children's hands, these are adult gloves". I was like "I know, but kids love to put on adult things... and it's a flipping glove." But they are very "gear oriented" and think that if you let a kid play with adult things, you are doing them a disservice. I laughed.
Needless to say.. that's the WORST class I've been to in almost 3 years. This one topped our "CPR training" class that we just watched a video and were deemed CPR certified (I have been certified for a few years, but Beth never was. She feels no more comfortable performing CPR after then class then she did before).
After class B and I went to TGIFriday's for lunch/supper. Their chicken fingers were GREAT, and the Broccoli/Cheddar soup was good but hot! I got a piece of Cheesecake to go, as that's my favourite dessert, and I just ate it. My goodness, rich but delicious!
Thanks Kim for the Bible recommendation. I need to get that before wednesday...I may go now to see if our Christian Bookstore has them.
I opted to order it offline for 14.99 VS getting it at the bookstore for 50 dollars. Yay for amazon... only thing is I won't have a Bible to take to class until it gets here.. in a week or such. Allwell, hopefully it'll be worth the wait. (I did look "inside" the book on Amazon, and loved the translation... exciting!
Now time to look at HWK.
Then when the presenter asked me how I liked the class and what I would take away with me... When I gave her my answer, she didn't like it. She very much blasted my idea of letting the kids play with the gloves by saying over and over again, "These are not made for children's hands, these are adult gloves". I was like "I know, but kids love to put on adult things... and it's a flipping glove." But they are very "gear oriented" and think that if you let a kid play with adult things, you are doing them a disservice. I laughed.
Needless to say.. that's the WORST class I've been to in almost 3 years. This one topped our "CPR training" class that we just watched a video and were deemed CPR certified (I have been certified for a few years, but Beth never was. She feels no more comfortable performing CPR after then class then she did before).
After class B and I went to TGIFriday's for lunch/supper. Their chicken fingers were GREAT, and the Broccoli/Cheddar soup was good but hot! I got a piece of Cheesecake to go, as that's my favourite dessert, and I just ate it. My goodness, rich but delicious!
Thanks Kim for the Bible recommendation. I need to get that before wednesday...
I opted to order it offline for 14.99 VS getting it at the bookstore for 50 dollars. Yay for amazon... only thing is I won't have a Bible to take to class until it gets here.. in a week or such. Allwell, hopefully it'll be worth the wait. (I did look "inside" the book on Amazon, and loved the translation... exciting!
Now time to look at HWK.
12 January 2007
Music
I just picked up my old trumpet! I'm so excited to play it again. I can't wait to be able to afford a french horn... cheap french horn.. double... ahhh yes. Mum's looking on ebay for me.
I'm excited to play music again. I can't wait to introduce such to my children someday. Music truely makes the soul free.
Anyway, just wanted to put a blurb here so I can remember to write about music later!
Later,
Hawk
I'm excited to play music again. I can't wait to introduce such to my children someday. Music truely makes the soul free.
Anyway, just wanted to put a blurb here so I can remember to write about music later!
Later,
Hawk
09 January 2007
Adoption Fair
One of the mum's at the daycare I work is a fost-adopt mum who I work very close with with her children. I often form bonds with them "just in case", often taking her oldest boy out for dinner once or twice a month (who's bio mum had a court date yesterday.. here's to hoping she doesn't get him back (she abondoned him and his 5 siblings when he was just over a year old. He came to our daycare at 2 and now at 3.5 yrs old he is thriving, going to school, speaking in almost clear sentences and only has mild behaviour problems.. a complete 180 from his previous behaviour.)) Regardless, this mum gave me the bit on the adoption fair in Louisville. Wednesday's child is holding the fair and I am truely hoping CWA will be there.
I have to email the lady at CWA and inform her I will not be at the informational meeting saturday. I have a daycare training that day that ends an hour before the adoption training begins and I do not forsee myself being able to drop off the lady I teach with and get across town. It's nearly impossible. I will reschedule it for the March 13th day. That should be easier!
In other news, the adopt fair. I am excited to go to it. Going to try to drag along my mum in hopes of convicing her that not having little red headed children of my own will not harm me in any way. the way I explained it to her is "I am in a unique area of my life that I see so many children who NEED a loving forever family... I can be that. That doesn't stop me from some day changing my mind and having biological children, but even with biological children, the pull to adopt has been too strong... since I was 5. I think that is the right calling for me, to adopt." She just keeps saying she'll never have grandkids. (In her defense my 30 yr old brother isn't married, and can't keep a GF cause he's a chovanist, and my middle brother, 26, has his first serious gf who isn't psychotic, and very well could be married in a year... but we all think he's gay.) Regardless, dealing with her constantly telling me I'll never have the funds, or I won't be able to do it, really doesn't help much.
I bought a few things for my new apartment. I still don't have an apartment, but I should be debt free by the end of this year (sans schooling debt) and I will be able to move into a two bedroom and hopefully start fost-adopting infants and sibling sets, and that will just help my efforts for foreign adoption.
I can't wait to grow up, yet I don't want to, all at the same time. One thing I know, however, is I am very ready to be a parent. Very ready.
I have to email the lady at CWA and inform her I will not be at the informational meeting saturday. I have a daycare training that day that ends an hour before the adoption training begins and I do not forsee myself being able to drop off the lady I teach with and get across town. It's nearly impossible. I will reschedule it for the March 13th day. That should be easier!
In other news, the adopt fair. I am excited to go to it. Going to try to drag along my mum in hopes of convicing her that not having little red headed children of my own will not harm me in any way. the way I explained it to her is "I am in a unique area of my life that I see so many children who NEED a loving forever family... I can be that. That doesn't stop me from some day changing my mind and having biological children, but even with biological children, the pull to adopt has been too strong... since I was 5. I think that is the right calling for me, to adopt." She just keeps saying she'll never have grandkids. (In her defense my 30 yr old brother isn't married, and can't keep a GF cause he's a chovanist, and my middle brother, 26, has his first serious gf who isn't psychotic, and very well could be married in a year... but we all think he's gay.) Regardless, dealing with her constantly telling me I'll never have the funds, or I won't be able to do it, really doesn't help much.
I bought a few things for my new apartment. I still don't have an apartment, but I should be debt free by the end of this year (sans schooling debt) and I will be able to move into a two bedroom and hopefully start fost-adopting infants and sibling sets, and that will just help my efforts for foreign adoption.
I can't wait to grow up, yet I don't want to, all at the same time. One thing I know, however, is I am very ready to be a parent. Very ready.
05 January 2007
Let me introduce myself to you
I realized I have never posted a proper introduction on here.
I am Hawk. I don't hate my birthname, but I don't share it often. Most everyone I know calls me Hawk or Sprout. I am almost 22, almost (as in just over a month away), and I am quite excited for my birthday.
At the moment I live with my mother, which really is not the best place for me. I am looking into apartments, but right now I cannot afford a simple studio, let alone anything worth bringing a child into. I have already planned my apartment out, but it's pretty useless until I get an apartment.
I am a college student, doing horribly at the moment, but hopefully will pull this out this semester (assuming I can find the money to afford paying for it). If I could just pass math, I would be good.
I work at a daycare teaching two year olds. Constantly chasing children has given me a new admiration for parents. I have worked at said daycare for just under 3 years, June is my anniversary date. I love my kids, often taking them outside of daycare for a day at Chuck E Cheese or the likes (one at a time, I'm not insane enough to take 10 out by myself!). I float sometimes at work, and love the younger classes, as they don't talk back too much. No has by far become my most dested word in the world.
I teach sign langauge to my kiddos, as well as french. I am fluent in French (going on 8 years now fluent) and I have been signing since I was about 4 years old. I love seeing kids connect ideas with signs, it gives a small child so much better a chance to communicate. I am working on becoming fluent in Russian. I refuse to let my adopted children (whomever they may be) lose a part of their culture simply because I adopted them. My goal is to involve as much Russian culture into my life, so they will not feel completely alienated.
I has been in love only once in my life, and my heart was ripped from my chest. More than likely I won't open myself up again for that to happen. I will just go for the flow at this moment. Love happens.
I love reading and music. My life became bland after I stopped playing the French Horn after highschool. I'm looking now for a cheap horn, just to put life back in my... well, life.
I think that is all. Feel free to ask questions... or not. It's all good.
Later
I am Hawk. I don't hate my birthname, but I don't share it often. Most everyone I know calls me Hawk or Sprout. I am almost 22, almost (as in just over a month away), and I am quite excited for my birthday.
At the moment I live with my mother, which really is not the best place for me. I am looking into apartments, but right now I cannot afford a simple studio, let alone anything worth bringing a child into. I have already planned my apartment out, but it's pretty useless until I get an apartment.
I am a college student, doing horribly at the moment, but hopefully will pull this out this semester (assuming I can find the money to afford paying for it). If I could just pass math, I would be good.
I work at a daycare teaching two year olds. Constantly chasing children has given me a new admiration for parents. I have worked at said daycare for just under 3 years, June is my anniversary date. I love my kids, often taking them outside of daycare for a day at Chuck E Cheese or the likes (one at a time, I'm not insane enough to take 10 out by myself!). I float sometimes at work, and love the younger classes, as they don't talk back too much. No has by far become my most dested word in the world.
I teach sign langauge to my kiddos, as well as french. I am fluent in French (going on 8 years now fluent) and I have been signing since I was about 4 years old. I love seeing kids connect ideas with signs, it gives a small child so much better a chance to communicate. I am working on becoming fluent in Russian. I refuse to let my adopted children (whomever they may be) lose a part of their culture simply because I adopted them. My goal is to involve as much Russian culture into my life, so they will not feel completely alienated.
I has been in love only once in my life, and my heart was ripped from my chest. More than likely I won't open myself up again for that to happen. I will just go for the flow at this moment. Love happens.
I love reading and music. My life became bland after I stopped playing the French Horn after highschool. I'm looking now for a cheap horn, just to put life back in my... well, life.
I think that is all. Feel free to ask questions... or not. It's all good.
Later
04 January 2007
Children's Names
My mum asked me about names for kids. Today I spent a lot of time thinking about it and stuck with the names I have loved since I was about 5.
My twins (which I hope to adopt first) will be Aleskei Zakary (Aleksei = Defender, Zakary = God has remembered) and Aubrey Ezekial (Aubrey = Noble Ruler, Ezekial = God Will Strengthen).
My next boy will be Kaelin James (Kaelin = Pure, James = Supplanter).
My daughter will be Elisabeth Katherine *after her grandmother she will never meet* (Elsabether = God is my Oath, Katherine = Pure)
I know i fI adopt older children this will likely change, as changing the name of children over 4 seems cruel to me (in a way, I fear they'd never adjust to them). But regardless this is my goal.
Aleksei Zakary, Aubrey Ezekial
Kaelin James
Elisabeth Katherine
My twins (which I hope to adopt first) will be Aleskei Zakary (Aleksei = Defender, Zakary = God has remembered) and Aubrey Ezekial (Aubrey = Noble Ruler, Ezekial = God Will Strengthen).
My next boy will be Kaelin James (Kaelin = Pure, James = Supplanter).
My daughter will be Elisabeth Katherine *after her grandmother she will never meet* (Elsabether = God is my Oath, Katherine = Pure)
I know i fI adopt older children this will likely change, as changing the name of children over 4 seems cruel to me (in a way, I fear they'd never adjust to them). But regardless this is my goal.
Aleksei Zakary, Aubrey Ezekial
Kaelin James
Elisabeth Katherine
01 January 2007
New Year
New Year means new things, including a redeclaration of faith.
I am starting a new bible study in the wednesday night classes under Andee. It is Beth Moore's study of Daniel.
Sadly the first thing I must do is go get a Bible. Is that not sad? The last Bible I was given as a gift, it was the day of my baptism in the RLDS church. It was an Adventure Study Bible for teens. I used it for many years, and possibly will use it to better break things down, then have the grown up Bible to take to class with me. That way I seem mature while still getting things broke down so I understand them better without having to look like an idiot asking questions. I will be the youngest in the class, by no less than 10 years... as I think Andee will be clostest in age to me and she is 32, almost 33. But this is not the first time. The last Bible study, 2 sessions ago, was at Andee's house and it was just Frankie, Andee, and myself. Frankie was 31, Andee 32, and myself 21. It is daunting to know these people have been a lot further along in their walk than myself, but alas, there is nothing for "young adults" at this church... and if I bring it up with the pastor, he'll make me head of the commitee for finding a young adult population in teh church.. which is impssible. The next oldest to me is 27 (which is young adult.. but only her) and the next younger wise is 16. I am the old person out.
Regardless, Beth Moore. I plan on using this blog for daily life too. As I mature and grow I am learning that many blogging sites are not meant for an older crowd, except this one.
"Explore Beth Moore's newest study, the Book of Daniel!
I am starting a new bible study in the wednesday night classes under Andee. It is Beth Moore's study of Daniel.
Sadly the first thing I must do is go get a Bible. Is that not sad? The last Bible I was given as a gift, it was the day of my baptism in the RLDS church. It was an Adventure Study Bible for teens. I used it for many years, and possibly will use it to better break things down, then have the grown up Bible to take to class with me. That way I seem mature while still getting things broke down so I understand them better without having to look like an idiot asking questions. I will be the youngest in the class, by no less than 10 years... as I think Andee will be clostest in age to me and she is 32, almost 33. But this is not the first time. The last Bible study, 2 sessions ago, was at Andee's house and it was just Frankie, Andee, and myself. Frankie was 31, Andee 32, and myself 21. It is daunting to know these people have been a lot further along in their walk than myself, but alas, there is nothing for "young adults" at this church... and if I bring it up with the pastor, he'll make me head of the commitee for finding a young adult population in teh church.. which is impssible. The next oldest to me is 27 (which is young adult.. but only her) and the next younger wise is 16. I am the old person out.
Regardless, Beth Moore. I plan on using this blog for daily life too. As I mature and grow I am learning that many blogging sites are not meant for an older crowd, except this one.
Divided into 2 parts, the 1st portion (Daniel 1-6), emphasized by Lives of Integrity, deals with the life of the prophet and is extremely contemporary. Daniel faced pressures and temptations similar to those of a Christian in today's world. He teaches and models for us how to develop enduring integrity in an enticing world.
The 2nd half (Daniel 7-12), turns to explore the prophecies of Daniel. It deals in-depth with the historical details, predictions, and fulfillments detailing history from the time of Daniel, through the inter-biblical period, the time of Christ, and on to the second coming of Christ." http://www.lifewaystores.com/lwstore/product.asp?isbn=1415825882
Anyways, I am excited and plan on going out to look for a Bible tomorrow, barring I have the money, which I should. Any suggestions?
Edit:
I do have one thing I must get off my chest. Renee will be in my class and God is really going to have to show me some patience. I cannot stand her at church, outside of church and anywhere else. She has a habit of dropping by my second job and I just want to scream. She is loud, obnoxious and thinks the world revolves around her problems. She also has a habit of calling me out in classes. The last sesion of classes I had with her (Sessions 2 and 3 of the year) she felt the need to call me out every time I had a tear in my eye. I have a very sensative soul when it comes to children crying, or parents crying because of their children. The leader, Karla, talked a bit about how her son took to his grandfather (her father) dying, and I cried. I felt so bad hearing her story, yet she felt the need to have the group "pray for me". I was embarassed and didn't attend 3 weeks after that. I do not do well being called out like that, let alone when I'm already crying. Regardless, a little happy thought as I deal with my feelings for her and trying not to knock her out, would be greatly appreciated.
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