Random meme

type your year of birth and click google images, and voilà! A story to tell.

1985

We are the world is recorded by USA for Africa (Jackson still had a nose!)



Ernie Wise makes the first British Mobile phone call with Vodafone



Dukes of Hazzard goes off air after 6.5 years (it was all cause they brought in the "cousin" dukes instead of sticking with the originals.)



The night stalker kills his first two victims



New Coke failed.



Auschwitz "death Angel", Josef Mengele, is found to be buried in Brazil under the name "Wolfgang Gerhard"



Air India Flight 182 blew up killing all 329 on board



TWA flight 847 is hijacked by Hezbollah (look in the corner.. it talks about Mengele in the same article!)



SUPER MARIO BROS RELEASED!!!



Blockbuster opens in Texas



John Gotti becomes leader of the Gambino family



Wow.. 1985 was boring....

De-Lurking week!

Okay, I'm starting De-lurking week! We are in the fall season and everything starts to change and all that stuff.. SO, I am starting de-lurker week. I dunno if anyone will participate, but hell, I'm putting it out there.

I have over 500 hits.. I get one or two comments from the same person (and my SBP, who I dunno who that is yet) and I Wanna know who else is reading my blog!

So here's your chance.. DE LURK! I plan to delurk on the blogs I read (which will take me the better part of the week.. haha!

Okay.. the point? DE LURK! just say HI!

~Hawk

School starts, tooth pulled, finger gidgets

Okay, I had tooth #31 pulled today (12 year molar).. and wow.. hurts.

School started this week for my pre schoolers... My GOD! They are killing me. 10 min writing exercises are turning into 3 hour projects... My little smarty? Yeah, takes him teh longest because all I hear outta him is "that's rediculous" "why do I have to do BOTH sheets?" "Ugh, this is rediculous" 100 times! I had to break his little heart the other day (Wednesday)... everyone else in the class (6 other kids right now) got done... and he was still on the dots of his name sheet (3 rows of dots with his name, then 4 rows of write it yourself name) and so I took the other kids outside and left him in with the 3 yr old class... I felt horrible about it, but he did his work yesterday (and I was out with my tooth today, so I dunno how he did).

I know it's a slow process, I know it's going to take time, first week, blah blah blah.. but it's driving me crazy that I can't get them to even get half the work done in 15 mins... But I dunno... I went out to the teacher supply store and bought fight widgets that go on their pencils. I've got 2 leftys and 5 rightys.. and I have a hard time teaching the rightys to write better... so these widgets are specially designed for the correct hand.. and that's what I'm gunna use to hopefully get everything in order that way.

Week one is done though, and I am exhausted, even after having a day off... I hate the thoguht of going back on monday and seeing that the folders didn't go home, that work was not done on friday... I dread thinking who she (my boss) put in my class.. and the chaos that one day off schedule this early in the game can cause.. but the tooth had to come out.

I am getting prepared for a get together with EJ.. he wants to "talk" about what he said, about everything... shit... I dunno.. I'm not thinking right, cause I invited him down for the day... we are gunna go hang out at waterfront and go out to dinner to talk.. stupid boys.

Anyway, on the adoption front... I added 2 agencies to my list, and took away 4.. so I'm down to 6 agencies who I'll chose who to go with from. It's kinda sad.. right now, my life is so far from adoption, yet it would be perfect right now to adopt.. blah.

Hope all is well with all of you!

Back to basics

Boys suck.. plain and simple...

Back to basics.. talked to EJ about what we "were" and he proceeded to tell me all about this other person he's interested in and why this makes our situation interesting.. cause if he lived near this other person, he'd date them in a heartbeat.. but since he lives in a whole nother state from this person.. he is "settling" for me (yet, he didnt' say it that way... He said was ".although in all likelihood it won't make a difference since I find it hard enough to find one person to date not to even mention two :-P").. so basically he's settling for me cause he'll never find anyone else... Which.. sucks.

Anyway.. we may still hang out, but I'm not going to think about classifying it other than a friendship... no worrying about being exciting around him, no more wondering if he likes me.. no more hand holding or wanting something mor eoutta that... It's all just a friendship now.. and while that royally sucks and rips at my being... it also just makes sense. I'm not dating material.. I'm not marriagement material.. I'm a settlement.

Allwell.. back to basics.. Boys suck, no more dating, just me being single and living that life again with a smile on my face. I don't have to settle for anyone.. and I won't. but it still sucks so much it makes me cry. Stupid boys.

In memory

1 year ago a plane crashed up in Lexington. We didn't think much of it, except, oh how sad. Then mum got a phone call from her best friend "How's Fox doing after the crash?"... and it all got kinda scary... "What do you mean how's Fox?" "Oh, you didn't know?" "No, WHAT DON'T I KNOW ABOUT FOX???" "His GFs parents were on that flight.... they are dead"

Two people we knew died on that flight, and today marks the one year anniversary of that death.

So in the memory of all those who died in the flight, and in the greatest memory of the Combs'... Please take a moment to remember everyone, all 50 lives touched by the flight, 49 of them lost.

• Rebecca Adams, 47
• Christina Anderson, 39
• Lyle Anderson, 55
• Arnold Andrews, 64
• Anne Marie Bailey, 49
• Bobbie Benton, 50, and Jesse Clark Benton, 48
• Carole Bizzack, 64
• George Brunacini, 60
• Brian Byrd, 28
• Jeffrey Clay, 35
• Homer Combs, 51, and Karen Diane Combs, 52
• Fenton Dawson, 46
• Thomas Fahey, 26
• Mike Finley, 52
• C.W. Fortney II, 34
• Wade "Bart" Frederick, 44
• Hollie Gilbert, 35
• Erik Harris, 28
• Kelly Heyer, 27
• Jonathan Hooker, 27, and Scarlett Parsley Hooker, 23
• Priscilla Johnson, 54, and JoAnn Wright, 56
• Tetsuya Kono, 34, and Nahoko Kono, 31
• Charles Lykins, 46
• Dan Mallory, 55
• Steve McElravy, 57
• Lynda McKee, 58
• Bobby Meaux, 31
• Leslie Morris II, 72, and Kaye Morris, 58
• Cecile Moscoe, 29
• Judy Rains, 35
• Michael Ryan, 55
• Mary Jane Silas, 58
• Pat Smith, 58
• Timothy Snoddy, 51
• Marcie Thomason, 25
• Greg Threet, 35
• Randy Towles, 47
• Larry Turner, 51
• Victoria Washington, 54
• Jeff Williams, 49
• Paige Winters, 16
• Bryan Woodward, 39
• Betty Young, 74
• James Polehinke The lone survivor

Date three

Okay, so dating for you married people who read my blog may not SEEM interesting.. but for me.. it is.

Date three went great. We hung out at his apartment, had a beer, played video games and watched the simpsons and Venture brothers. It was pretty cool! We even held hands.. which for me was happy... Taking it slow...

He did break my "goal code" on my other journal.. which sucks.. cause now he knows "goal" for date 4 in a couple weeks.... but that's okay.. perhaps he'll take charge and do it... but who knows.

Anyway, off to run around for a bit.. only sucky thing about dating EJ is that he lives in Lex and I'm in Lou.. about an hour and a half away... so I hate that we can really only see eachother on weekends right now.. but that's taking it nice and slow...

Alright, update later with my agency post.. I haven't forgotten.. just been too busy.

Ugh

My brother Fox has Lupus.. Lupus Nefritis... And I am oddly rejoicing... because they thought he had instage renal disease cause he's having kidney problems. I kno Lupus is still horrible.. but many people on my da's side of the family are stilling living with Lupus... and have been for many years... I'm sad that at 27 my brother has to deal with this... but I'm glad it's not something worse...

Regardless, nothing major is going on in my life.. I'm going to be writing hopefully a good adoption post soon about agencies... Other than that.. it's been a week focused on Fox and making sure he's okay.

Date numero 2!

So, date one went great, and now I have date two!

WOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!

Bowling.

First date

Okay, so it's sad to admit, at 22 I just went on my first date. Yes, you heard me correctly... or shall I say read me correctly.

I went out with a bio guy.. and he was pretty damn cool.

We went to the movies, classic first, and saw the Simpsons movie. And as someone who doesn't really watch the show... it was pretty darn cool. It was hilarious at parts.. and I must say... Spider Pig was awesome!

Then over to O'Charley's for supper. Steak for him and turkey for me... and he actually didn't seem odd that I didn't get a steak... My brothers freak acuse I don't eat what they do...

Funny thing at the restaruant. Our waiter, Anthony, kept checking him out! It was hilarious. We'd be sitting there and he REALLY paid attentiont o him.. and E didn't see it at first. It wasn't until he took our order and put his arm on E's booth that he realized I wasn't crazy. It was great... he always spoke to him (cept maybe once he looked at me... and I honestly think that's when the bill came out), he refilled his water glass once and asked him if he wanted a second (mind you our glasses weren't dispropotionate in how much we each had left) and when he went to the wait station behind out booth he started at E like he was getting some! Oh it was great!

Regardless, for a first date.. my awesomeness! He wasn't forward with anything.. he seemed as nervous as me and generally didn't care to talk about childhood. He told some good stories, I got some in too... all in all I'd say by the end, I was comfortable. No one who reads this will understand that statement... but for me, that's pretty big.

All in all, I'd say it was a succesfull and hopefully repeatable.

That's all!

A date?

Oh my I think I gave my mum a heartattack! I haven't dated since I had my heart broken.. mind you that's quite a bit ago.. and I have a date tonight!

Yes, you heard me correctly.. me.. who swore I'd never date again.. is going to see the Simpson's movie with a boy... a real true boy! A boy who sought ME out.. who contacted ME first... and I'm quite astonished I agreed. He's driving an hour and a half to come see a movie with ME!

Lol... can you tell I'm nervously excited... I just have to get use of the car... Which I doubt I will have a problem with.. if mum ever gets off the phone!

Alright.. time to get ready.. what the heck.. get ready! woo!

SBP

Okay SBP, I officially love you!

I got your package and I just can't wait to find out who you are so I can send you thousands of thanks yous and a few cards and such! Dear goodness!

(and you reminded me tha tI need to make a trip to the post office and mail out my SBP stuff!)

Again, THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU!!!!

Agency choices

So I'm down to 5 agencies! LOL, sadly I only started out with 9, and I wittled down so far by agencies who would talk to me starting today... being atelast a year under the "rules" (3 years by some agencies), I wanted to know an agency would take the time to talk to me now, to help me prepare and the likes. So far, 5 of the 9 have.

I'm not done searching yet... but I'm excited to have wittled some of my most advertised agencies down because they wouldn't take 5 mins to talk to me about their programme (It was rather rude, to be honest, but I digress).

If anyone works with an exceptionally excellent agency who you feel will talk to somone BEFORE they are of age to adopt, please send me an email I promise I won't name drop or the likes. I just want to be prepared and have my choices... I'm rather excited.

Please help and notify anyone you can

This guy who's aunt is missing is an awesome guy and started a foundation that I believe in whole heartedly.

Please, help if you can, and repost so that more people will see this and can help.

Thank you

MISSING: Joey Lynn Offutt

FindJoey.org

Hope Chest!

So, my grandmother let my mum take out Aunt Darce's old chest from her dining room. On this chest used to sit an old mummy that scared the shit outta my cousin! Well, I have it now. And it has officially become the hope chest for my children. I'm excited.

Surgery

Surgery went fine. I was home yesterday by 1130... with a 730 start time.. that's not bad. I spent about 35 mins in the operating theatre, then an hour in recovery, then an hour is recovery two (where family can visit)... and was home realitively earlier than anyone thought.

Thanks for the prayers.

Happy thoughts

If you have the time, if you could please remember me in your prayers. My knee sugery is today at 7:30 am.

Thanks.

100th post

Kestrel, Falcon, Eagle, and Osprey,

This is the 100th in a blog dedicated to you four. This entire journey is dedicated to brining you home, to your forever family.

I often dream about you four. I know right now, July 2007, you are not born yet, any of you. I dream about your smiles and about your small little hands and about your tiny toes. I dream about how much love you bring into my life, and me into yours. I dream daily about you.

Kestrel-
You are my oldest, the first born of my first two brought home (who I often call my twins). I dream of you as my dark haired, dark eyed little boy who is all boy. I often think of you as the one who will shower me with "Drive by" kisses and hugs. My boy that will, as my mother put it, make my heart stop, my breath catch, and my pride swell. I often wonder if I should give you your brother's name, thinking it'd fit better, as you remind me of the boy you will be named after. I can't wait to finally meet you, hold you and show you the kind of love that you can truely only get from a family. You are, in my mind, already a valued member of my family, my life and already own the greatest amount of love I can give you. I love you Aleksei Zachary, and eagerly await your presence in my life.



Falcon -
Kestrel's better half, yet a boy of your own right. I dream of you playing hopscotch a lot. I do not know what that means, but I do know I'd jump any hurdle to hold you and bring you home. You show up with dark hair and brillant grey eyes. My cuddler, my boy who will want his mamka to hold him constantly, never wanting to be far away. I eargerly await cuddling and kissing you, showering you with the love only a mamaka can give you. You hold a special place in my heart, my family will not be complete until you are with us. To watch you grow will be something of a miracle to me. I love you Aubrey Ezekiel, and cannot wait to have you home with me.

Eagle -
My girl, my baby daughter. You are the light of my life, and yet you don't even know the world yet. You are my light haired beauty, with brillant green eyes. You show up in my dreams as my darkest child, who holds onto her past longer than any of the boys. But I'm already anticipating you, I'm already planning how I can show you my love and show you that I do value your past and your culture. Someday you will see the vast pictures I've drawn showing that I love you. Your name is a grandmother you will never meet, but who I dream of you being like. A firey red head, with a little temper all your own. I dream of you being my easiest adoption, which will be a blessing. You, I feel, will be the center of our family. Bringing a completness to everything you do. I can't wait to hold you, my daughter, and bring you home to feel the touch and love of your mamaka. I love you Elisabeth Katherine, and openly await your flight home.

Osprey -
My baby, my youngest. You hold the finalization of our family. The moment you are home, our family is finally complete. I love my dreams with you. A bouncy boy, I meet you on your first birthday. You have jet black hair and chocolate brown eyes. You remind me so much of your uncle T that I cry to think about it. You are so smart, even so young. You express yourself not with tears, but other ways... a lot of pointing is done. You pick up so fast on what I want to teach you and you embrace family life better than anyone else. I cannot wait to see how you fit into my dreams once you are a reality, but I know my dream world would not lie to me. You are my last child to hold, and you have your moments. You want to be held, but to play at the same time. You are my little monkey, the one I fear I will have to throw out all my previous experience to parent. You are not born yet, but you will hopefully read this in the future and know that even now, in 2007, your mamaka wished for you and loved you. I love you Kaelin James, and know in my heart you will be home in the blink of an eye.

To you all -
You are loved and wanted, charished and celebrated. You are my babies, and I cannot wait to wrap my arms around you. I love you for, and to each of you wish a quiet life until you can come to your forever home, with me.

Names

Me - Hawk

Aleksei - Kestrel
Aubrey - Falcon
Elisabeth - Eagle
Kaelin - Osprey

So I finished finding birds of prey to go with. I didn't want ot call my future children "Vulture" or "Buzzard".. those aren't cute ones! So I found the Osprey.. and it's a pretty bird, much like a Hawk, and are often called Sea Hawks... which I like.

So now my children are all sorts of birds of prey.. I just.. if I choose more than 4, which I may, I have to go with Vulture and Buzzard.. cause there aren't that many BoP.. lol.

Friday surgery

So this friday I have surgery on my knee. I have a torn Meniscus and several cartilage floating around. I can't move the knee without great popping.. woo!

So friday, before I lose my insurance (probably September), I get to have surgery, Arthoscopic. I'm kinda excited about it, fixing my knee is a top priority in my life... and it's the final step before I can move out.. so hopefully this time next year I'll be on my own and practicing my great parental abilities (HAH!) with my own child... who knows.

Regardless, I'm looking into mission trips to Romania for next year as well. I want to go help out at an orphanage for a while... who knows. At the moment I'm dreaming of living in another country. A slavic country (Russia, Czech, Slavia, Romania, the likes). Who knows.. could be fun... I enjoy dreaming!

Anyway, if you have a second, if you could think on Friday to give me a happy thought, I'd appreciate it. Any good vibes will be awesome. Thanks!

(also, my 100th post is comming up.. I'm trying ot think of something special for it.... who knows!)

Sigs giveaway

Per request of Sig and her giveaways... A picture of my hottie...



Okay, I know he's gay, and really I've known that since I "fell in love" with him when I was like.. 12 or whatever... but he's still hot! (And he has a deep deep deep voice.. a must for a future spouse of mine.)

Regardless, Lance went from a silly looking kid with platnium blonde hair, to a rather stunning looking young man.

And to further show my fandom of many years ago, and I mean many.. I fell inlove with Lance's true first name, James... and thus my first son, which is now turning into my last son (as I want my twins first) will be Kaelin James, after Lance... and I even had two fire belly newts named James and Lance... It's sad really.

Regardless, Lance is my fantasy man.