31 March 2007

a little bit pissed

I am not Islamic, I am RLDS, but I know much because of research I did. If you have any questions, want to know anything more, please feel free to ask me. I make it a point to know everything I can about every religion I can hear about. It makes it easier to stand in my faith without being ignorant or judgemental.

a blog i read has a very interesting pic of Pope John Paul II kissing a Quran (to which she even mispelled). What pisses me off is her comments about how Allah is a moon god, blah blah blah.. and some comments there about how Islam is NOT a peaceful religion.. and it makes me wonder if these people even know what they are talking about.

A few facts about Islam (and this is from a person who was very close to converting, but opted against it aftr 9-11 for chicken reasons (namely I didn't want to be singled out)).

There are 5 pillars to Islam:

Testimony of faith (Kalima)
Basically you can do this peacefully at home, with no witnesses but Allah. You sit down, state your intentions, state that there is no other higher power but Allah (who Christians' call God) and that Mohammad is his ony messenger (the Christian references is that Jesus is the Son of God, Mohammad is the Jesus of Islam, just not a son, a mere prophet)

Prayer (Salat)
"Seek Allah's help with patient perseverance and prayer. It is indeed hard except for those who are humble."
(2:45)

Formal prayers:
Fajr (pre-dawn): The before sunrise prayer that is done in rememberence of God.

Dhuhr (noon): A break in the work day to seek God and his guidence.

'Asr (afternoon): While trying to take care of the kids, wrap up the work day, this prayer is to stop a moment and just ask God for wisdom.

Maghrib (sunset): A closing of the day prayer, just to remember God.

'Isha (evening): a prayer to remember God's presence, guidance, mercy, and forgiveness.

Fasting (Sawm)

Raamadan is the month that is spent fasting during the day. THe point of the fast is much like Catholic LENT. It is time spent praying and honouring God. Not only is Raamandan for food fasting, but also it is a time to fast from unholy things and reevaluate your Islamic commitment.

Almsgiving (Zakat)
Charity giving. Basically it is like giving tithes in a Church, yet for the Islamic, it is more than that. They must give it to the poor, their income, their time. It is important to pay alms to those who cannot help themselves.

Pilgrimage (Hajj)
Here I am, Oh God, at Your command!
Here I am at Your command!
You are without associate!
Here I am at Your command!
To You are all praise, grace and dominion!
You are without associate!


A pilgrimage to Mecca, Saudi Arabia is very important to complete the life, though it is not REQUIRED to enter heaven. It is important to remember the suffering of those around you, the walk Mohammad made to mecca. Many make it in their bare feet, much like it would have been done in Mohammad's time. It is said to bring one the closest spirtually with Allah because of the sacrifice made to ones body to make the trip.

Basically I just want people to understand Islam is about finding adn seeking God, not killing anyone. The link below is a link that shows how much more violence Christians have caused than Musleims. Does that make them worse or better? No. Simply put it is just a different way to worship.

http://www.islam101.com/terror/christianViolence.htm

And I leave you with words of Islamic Wisdom:

"It is not righteousness that you turn your faces towards East or West.
But it is righteousness to believe in Allah and the Last Day,
And the Angels, and the Book, and the Messengers;
To spend of your substance, out of love for Him,
For your kin, for orphans, for the needy,
for the wayfarer, for those who ask, and for the ransom of slaves;
To be steadfast in prayer
And give in charity;
To fulfill the contracts which you have made;
And to be firm and patient, in pain and adversity
And throughout all periods of panic.
Such are the people of truth, the God-fearing.
Qur'an 2:177

29 March 2007

LMAO!

I am reading back bits on other adoption blogs. This particular one had a hilarious post, reposted here.

Airline Mechanics with a Sense of HumorJust in case you need a laugh:

Remember it takes a college degree to fly a plane but only a high school diploma to fix one.

Reassurance for those of us who fly routinely in our jobs.

After every flight, Qantas pilots fill out a form, called a "gripesheet," which tells mechanics about problems with the aircraft.The mechanics correct the problems, document their repairs on theform, and then pilots review the gripe sheets before the next flight.Never let it be said that ground crews lack a sense of humor.

Here are some actual maintenance complaints submitted by Qantas'pilots(marked with a P) and the solutions recorded (marked with an S) by maintenance engineers.By the way, Qantas is the only major airline that has never, ever, hadan accident.

P: Left inside main tire almost needs replacement.
S: Almost replaced left inside main tire.

P: Test flight OK, except auto-land very rough.
S: Auto-land not installed on this aircraft.

P: Something loose in cockpit.
S: Something tightened in cockpit.

P: Dead bugs on windshield.
S: Live bugs on back-order.

P: Autopilot in altitude-hold mode produces a 200 feet per minute descent.
S: Cannot reproduce problem on ground.

P: Evidence of leak on right main landing gear.
S: Evidence removed.

P: Friction locks cause throttle levers to stick.
S: That's what friction locks are for.

P: Suspected crack in windshield.
S: Suspect you're right.

P: Number 3 engine missing.
S: Engine found on right wing after brief search.

P: Aircraft handles funny.
S: Aircraft warned to straighten up, fly right, and be serious.

P: Target radar hums.
S: Reprogrammed target radar with lyrics.

P: Mouse in cockpit.
S: Cat installed.

And the best one for last..................

P: Noise coming from under instrument panel. Sounds like a midget pounding on something with a hammer.
S: Took hammer away from midget

Maybe I'm slap happy at 1 am with only 6 hours of sleep the whole week under my belt but I cannot stop laughing.

24 March 2007

stupid family

My aunt is starting her "why should she adopt, is she not proud of her heritage enough to produce babies?" speeches.

She called me mum and started grilling her on how she would "allow" me to do such a hideous thing like adopt... especially when I am fertile...

I am trying to figure out some witty things to come back to her on about it all. Right now it's the typical retort of "why would I want to pass on genes that created you?" but that just causes malice.

*sigh* stupid family.

21 March 2007

woo

I have the pre-k until further notice. Which makes me sad and happy at the same time. I have gone through all the old cirriculum and all teh stuff the last teacher used... This poor class has had 2 standard teachers and 2 float teachers in about 6 months time. I am consider one of the float teachers with Ms. G. Regardless, G won't do lesson plans, so while I am getting plans together for my 2's, I am now responsible for the prek lessons.. and those are much more important. I guess B will have to take over the bulk of lesson planning with our guys...

I hope the boss has someone hired before too too long. I don't wnt ot spend another summer outside my kiddos (I've been there 3 summers, almost 4, and have only spent one summer with my actual kids.) I also need to sit down and get our mother's days books together. That is our HUGE project, and it's rather large. The kids pick out their fave foam colours and we put togheter a booklet with poems (one I wrote, I'm rather proud of that!) and pictures of the kids. All topped off with their handprints on the back. It's adorable... and expected! lol. The boss loves when we hand those out because she gets parents who come to her crying with joy for how happy they are, which makes her daycare look good.

So anyways, time to leave for wednesday night class... I don't want to go, but it's almost over! Then we are starting a new Beth Moore study, but an actual book this time, not a workbook. I do not like this particular study, as I don't feel I am getting anything out of it. Regardless, I need to head out.

Later,

Hawk!

20 March 2007

ugh v.v

I'm cranky, it's okay.

I really wish people would let us know before they go private... and longer than an hour... some people do work.

I have been reading a blog for quite some time, the quest2kaz one... and now it's suddenly private... and that happened some time today, and I'm sad about it. I don't know those people, so i know no way to contacting them to say "hey, I have been reading your blog and I really am interested in your story, add me?" but it's like.. wow.

I know people have reasons for going private. I do read one private blog and the mother was nice enough to allow me to read it, but she has a damn good reason to go private.. and I'm sure everyone who does does, but I hate when blogs I enjoy to read go private.

Okay that was my rant. I'm better now.

Work today was tiring. We had a teacher fired, which it was about time. If she yelled at the kids ot "Shut up" one more time, I was gunna go off on her. She taught the pre-k, four year olds, and she was constantly yelling at them, psyically moving them around without cause and even slapped one. That was the last straw that got her fired, with her hitting a child on the mouth. I think we all would have quit had she not been fired.

Regardless, I think I am going to have to class starting tomorrow, which will leave B in our class alone... 10 two's all day by herself. We've both done it before, but neither of us like it too much. Hopefully the boss will have someone hired before monday.. as monday we have a class switch and we gain a kid in our room, as well as lose a kid, and I doubt B will be able to handle this newbie on her own.. shi.. I couldn't handle this newbie on my own. This boy... is 2 as of tomorrow, and he has no fine motor skills, doesn't talk except to say "ball" and is a holy terror. His mum keeps saying "I can't wait till he's in your (my) class so he will start talking and going to the toliet"... it's like woman, that doesn't magically happen! You have to WORK with your children outside of their 10 hours at daycare... Yes we teach them loads of stuff (I have a 2.5 yr old who can read and an almost 3 yr old who can write without assistance and can identify all the letters while writing them) but we don't do all the work. We do rely on the parents.

I am extremely tired with all that's goin on at work. Spring graduation is coming close adn I still haven't finished the videos... I've got mother's day books to get going and I still have to find out what to do about little A.. she has no mum (in jail for murdering her sister, oddly enough) and it's just really stressing me the poo out. Also there is strep and a nasty stomach virus going about.

Oh and I still haven't filed my taxes... I've got less than a month to file... and I haven't the time (nor the money to pay anyone to do it)... my head hurts, lol.

Like I said at the start of this post, I'm cranky.. and when I'm cranky I get complainy... tomorrow we'll be back to our regularly scheduled happy blog. :)

Off to take my last antibiotic pill and then to bed... woo!

19 March 2007

so effin sick

I'm quite tired of people with the Angelina Jolie thing. Yes, she did just adopt another child, Pax, and yes, she didn't have it in the media for very long, but guess what, that doesn't mean she went any way against the law. Angelina is very blunt about being on this side of the adoption laws. She works hard for Adoption rights, starts funds in her children's birth countries in their name, and constantly researches and finds the right children. So what if it doesn't take her 10 years to adopt. Sometimes all it takes is 6 months. Don't forget she hasn't got to take the time to riase funds, don't forget she doesn't have to take the time on other things that we do.

She waits just like we do, she's not Madonna.

Just chill on her okay? Geez.

17 March 2007

CWA Recommended Resources for Adoptive Parents

Attacing in Adoption Deborah Gray
Adoption Parentings Edited by Jean MacLeod and Sheena Macrae, PHD
I Wish for You A Beautiful Life Edited by Dorow
Growing up Adopted Rosenberg
Are Those Kids Yours? Cheri Register
Loved by Choice Horner and Martindale
The Whole Life Adoption Book Jayne Schooler
Telling The Truth to your Adopted or Foster Child: Making Sense of the Past Betsy Keefer and Jayne Schooler
Toddler Adoption: The Waver's Craft Mary Hopkins-Best
Insies Transracial Adoption Steinberg and Hall
20 Things Adopted Children Wished Their Adopted Parens Knew Sherrie Eldridge
Adopting the Hurt Child and Parenting the Hurt Child Gregory C. Keck and Regina M. Kupecky
How to Really Love Your Child Dr. Ross Campbell
The Out-Of-Sync Child Carol Stock Kranowitz
After the Dream Comes True Michelle Gardner
Adoption as a Ministry Michelle Gardner

Books For Cildren
How I was Adopted Joanna Cole
We're Different; We're the Same Bobbi Kates (Sesame Street)
Shaoey and Dot Mary Beth and Steven Curtis Chapman
I Love You Like Crazy Cakes Rose Lewis

Websites
www.adoption.com
www.adoptionlearningpartners.org
www.childtraumaacademy.com/amazing_brain , Bruce Perry, M.D, Ph.D.
www.adoptionarticlesdirectory.com/Article/Activies-to-Promote-Healthy-Development/11

CWA meeting

so it's almost 10p and I think I can finally have a moment to breathe to post. My mum's been on a huge cleaning thing tonight... ugh.

Anyways. It ended up only being me at the seminar. The other families did not show up, nor did the single mum who adopted from Russia a few years ago. She was having heart issues and was going to the hospital (valid reason if I ever heard one! lol).

The seminar was basically just going over what is an adoption, how does international differ from domestic, what can be expected in wait terms. Then she went over the different countries and I learned that in initial information she gave me about only having to be 23 for Russia was incorrect. You do have to be 25 if you are single. In the Ukraine however, you only have to be 23. The only problem I see with Ukraine is the children are much much older. 14 months and up at age of referral. Where as in russian 8 months and up is referral age. I don't know if I feel okay adopting that much of an older kid when it may be up to 8 months before I get him home. 22 months is well on their way to being content in their routine and the likes...I dunno.. something to think about.

I also like the looks of their Kyrgyzstan program for age of children as well, but I know NO ONE, in blog land or IRL, who has adopted from Kryg. In Kyrg you can get a refferal for a child as young as 3 months... and it estimates that it will take only up to a year to adopt and it s a one trip of about 10 days to complete.

Mrs. Roll did inform me that they have ALWAYS had teh waiting period dys waived for all thir families. That includes the Russian 10 day wait and the Ukraine 10-30 days wait. They have ALWAYS had it waived... which makes me excited to use them.

She did go on about the Ethiopia adoption programme. It's new, the cheapest, and as long as you are a professing and practicing Christian, it will take little to no time at all.

Kazakhstan is the thier most expensive adoption... and it goes down until their Ethiopian adoptions, being around 16000.

They gave a list of books which I'll type up in my next post (in about a min).

All in all it was an okay seminar. I would have liked it better to have not been the only person there. I really wanted to hear what other families asked about everything. I just didn't know the questions to ask... I know most everything about he process and I really just wanted someone who didn't know so much to ask all the questions.

Krisanne and Jeff were really cool. They explained their adoption and they made the seminar seem very home type. There was no need for dressing up or sitting up straight. It was very laidback and informal. Made it feel like the get together of a few friends instead of a seminar about adoption.

Anyway, all in all it was good. I may contact the Rolls and see if I can attend the one in may at the same place and hopefully have a few more families show up. I am genuinly in like of this agency. They seem awesome.

welp

well today is the seminar. In about an hour I'll be leavin for it and oddly I'm rather nervous...

I'm printing the directions to the place right now, which seems damn near impossible to find. I just hope it all works out. The lady who is hosting it said that there is about 2 other families coming as of monday, so I really hope they both show up so I'm not there alone... that would be awkward!

So anyway, step one, choose an agency.

13 March 2007

When you thought I wasn't looking

"When you thought I wasn't looking, I saw you hang my first painting on the refrigerator, and I immediately wanted to paint another one.

When you thought I wasn't looking, I saw you feed a stray cat, and I learned that it was good to be kind to animals.

When you thought I wasn't looking, I saw you make my favorite cake for me and I learned that little things can be the special things in life.

When you though I wasn't looking, I heard you say a prayer, and I knew there is a God I could always talk to and I learned to trust in God.

When you thought I wasn't looking, I saw you make a meal and take it to a friend who was sick, and I learned that we all have to help take care of each other.

When you thought I wasn't looking, I saw you give of your time and money to help people who had nothing and I learned that those who have something should give to those who don't.

When you thought I wasn't looking, I felt you kiss me good night and I felt loved and safe.

When you though I wasn't looking, I saw you take care of our house and everyone in it and I learned we have to take care of what we are given.

When you thought I wasn't looking, I saw how you handled your responsibilities, even when you didn't feel good and I learned that I would have to be responsible when I grew up.

When you thought I wasn't looking, I saw tears come from your eyes and I learned that sometimes things hurt, but it's all right to cry.

When you thought I wasn't looking, I saw that you cared and I wanted to be everything that I could be.

When you thought I wasn't looking, I learned most of life's lessons that I needed to know to be good and productive person when I grew up.

When you thought I wasn't looking, I looked at you and wanted to say, Thanks for all the things I saw when you thought I wasn't looking.'"

Another cute thing I found... another good thing to remember.

11 March 2007

March, what?

It's march, what?

In less than a week I have my first meeting with CWA, I'm actually quite nervous.

17th is coming to fast, yet not fast enough. I truely just hope thye are as sweet as everyone makes them out to be...

I don't have much else to write about, sadly.

07 March 2007

something my mum sent me

25 REASONS I OWE MY MOTHER"

1. My mother taught me TO APPRECIATE A JOB WELL DONE .
"If you're going to kill each other, do it outside. I just finished cleaning."

2. My mother taught me RELIGION.
"You better pray that will come out of the carpet

3. My mother taught me about TIME TRAVEL.
"If you don't straighten up, I'm going to knock you into the middle of next week!"

4. My mother taught me LOGIC.
" Because I said so, that's why.

5. My mother taught me MORE LOGIC
"If you fall out of that swing and break your neck, you're not going to the store with me."

6. My mother taught me FORESIGHT.
"Make sure you wear clean underwear, in case you're in an accident."

7. My mother taught me IRONY
"Keep crying, and I'll give you something to cry about.

8. My mother taught me about the science of OSMOSIS .
"Shut your mouth and eat your supper."

9. My mother taught me about CONTORTIONISM.
"Will you look at that dirt on the back of your neck!"

10. My mother taught me about STAMINA.
"You'll sit there until all that spinach is gone."

11. My mother taught me about WEATHER .
"This room of yours looks as if a tornado went through it."

12. My mother taught me about HYPOCRISY.
"If I told you once, I've told you a million times. Don't exaggerate!"

13. My mother taught me the CIRCLE OF LIFE.
"I brought you into this world, and I can take you out."

14 . My mother taught me about BEHAVIOR MODIFICATION .
"Stop acting like your father!"

15. My mother taught me about ENVY.
"There are millions of less fortunate children in this world who don't have wonderful parents like you do."

16. My mother taught me about ANTICIPATION.
"Just wait until we get home."

17. My mother taught me about RECEIVING .
"You are going to get it when you get home!"

18. My mother taught me MEDICAL SCIENCE.
"If you don't stop crossing your eyes, they are going to freeze that way."

19. My mother taught me ESP.
"Put your sweater on; don't you think I know when you are cold?"

20. My mother taught me HUMOR .
"When that lawn mower cuts off your toes, don't come running to me."

21. My mother taught me HOW TO BECOME AN ADULT.
"If you don't eat your vegetables, you'll never grow up."

22. My mother taught me GENETICS.
"You're just like your father."

23. My mother taught me about my ROOTS .
"Shut that door behind you. Do you think you were born in a barn?"

24. My mother taught me WISDOM.
"When you get to be my age, you'll understand."

25. And my favorite: My mother taught me about JUSTICE
"One day you'll have kids, and I hope they turn out just like YOU" !!!

04 March 2007

Baby Wearing

So researching bringing home children I've run across several different ideas on this.

I am pretty much going at this alone. Unless I magically gain a best friend or whatnot, I doubt anyone will be going to Russia with me to meet and bring home my children. I have been looking into baby wearers for some time now, as I feel that is a good way to carry a child and be hands-on elsewhere.

I ask your opinion, those of you who have used such, on which is the best.

Moby Wrap
Hip Hammock
Mei Tei
Podaegi
Ring sling

Any insight into personal experiences would be great.

Thanks.

28 February 2007

fun things for babies


I have been looking at clothing for toddlers (actually looking for something cute to send my SBP) and ran across something I found adorable... and sadly my children will probably live in them...
BabyLegs

Adorable!!!
I'm particularly fond of the purple stripes! Isn't that patter adorable?


Below is a picture of a baby wearing the BabyLegs...



27 February 2007

Birthday 2007

So another year older, another year down.

21 brought many changes. I was able to legally drink, I was made power of attorney in my mum's will, and my brothers gave me 3 shot glasses for my collection.

Now 22 will bring the begining of the adoption journey... ahh how we grow.

Anyway, I meant to write a more introspective post, but I'm so tired I think I shall go to bed.

25 February 2007

Chuck E Cheese

So in my goal to be very prepared I spend a lot of time with children (when you work in a daycare, it's hard not to). On monday of this past week I took two little boys to chuck e cheese... what a trip! Normally I take only C, as he was a foster kid and became really attached to me... so I wanted to spend a lot of time with him, hoping it would help his behaviour (it really hasn't...). Well I decided to try my hand at two kids. Now mind you, asking parents to borrow their kids makes me feel like a pedofile. I'm not going to HARM the children, but I just feel weird going up and being like "hey, can I borrow your kid for the afternoon?" it just seems weird to me!
Anyways! I asked Z's da if I could take him with me... he said yes and so my day was set with 2 3 yr old boys. Both of them 3.5 if you want to be technical. I left work with both boys, and that is where the fun began. Now in my class I have 10 two year olds. On alternating days I'm lefta lone with them while B goes to school. 10 twos is a cake walk compared to these two rambunctious boys!
We made it to the cheese about 6 and ordered our pizza and got our tokens. We were having LOADS of fun before pizza came. They both were listening, they were playing well together. We ate our pizza (2 piece minimum for theboys to get their second half of tokens) and suddenly, they changed! I don't know if it was the fully tummy's or the fact that they both felt brave suddenly... but it was impossible to keep them together. We ended up playing LOADS of rounds of skee ball (my personal fave) and they played a game where you have to push a button to shoot out a little basketball into one of the hoops. We had soooo much fun, but they were EVERYWHERE!
Afterwards we went up to get our tickets redeemed and they had some rediculous amount (like 125.. when just with C we are lucky to average 50). Well the counter scene was quite interesting. This lady just cuts infront of 4 families and starts shouting off how the Cheese is racist, and how no matter how long they wait no one will help them... makes me wanna smack her really. She was in line behind us, but suddenly wanted to be at the front of the line for no apparent reason. Z got scared and had me hold him, which was no big deal, and he kept asking "why is that lady yelling?" and kept telling me to tell her to use her indoor (indoor voices, a BIG concept at the daycare when the kids yell and scream). Needless to say I just let her go infront of us. I was almost scared of her.
The boys got exactly what they wanted (the "dane" (plane) and the "speaker" (Microphone)) and some tattoos.. then I coroalled them into the car.. which was a joy as usual. I got them both home a little late, but I have the trust of their parents and explained very plainly that the Cheese was a mad house, we had to wait for everything and that the drive home was littered with idiotic people who don't understand I have two kids in my car. Z's mum said she was a bit nervous but trusted me, and I promised her that next time I'd call at 7:30 and give her an update. C's mum couldn't care less. Long as he's home before 9 she is okay. She trusts me like no one ever has before... and I can only hope with my kids, I have someone to trust like that.

Moral of the story, I think I am doing the right thing by adopting two boys together, hopefully twins. Two was much better than one, for me, and I just feel the calling that it is right.

Now I have 5 mins to finish getting ready for church and to head off to the service. Have a great sunday!

24 February 2007

Learning Russian

So I speak Russian some, and now I speak it more!

I have been using byki.com free software. It has some for everything from animals, colours and even nifty hotel phrases. It's simple, easy to use and honestly is one of the better programmes I've run across.

I seriously recommend everyone who wants to learn Russian or any of 26 languages to give it a go. Really easy to use, really easy to understand and even has a "turtle" pronunciation for those who need words slowed downt o understand them.

Awesome programme

random things

After 5 months on blogger I added a photo. I'm not brave enough to post a picture of me, so whatelse should I have one of but a Hawk. Not only a hawk, but a Red Tail hawk in flight. This encompases the long flight home (the newish title of my journal). It just felt right, hah!

I'm going crazy trying to get all the photo's for the kiddos graduation video at the daycare. It's amazing to try to think of things and cute little poses they make that add cuteness to the video's. I also need to send that Abs pic to D... I took a cute photo in black and white of Abs and need to send it so she can use it in the video. If it doesn't make it, I'll cry. I love this pic!

I need to find it first... hm....

Anyway. So much is going on lately my head is spinning. We may be losing one of our kiddos to the 3s class, and that makes me sad. But as I've told everyone who will listen, I will NOT take her out of the video's I've spent a month or so on. She will just graduate as part of the twos class!

My birthday is in a few days and I'm not looking foreward to it. Only good part of getting another year older is that i'm another year closer to bringing home my children. Oh the joys.

I am off on the second of March from work, I am SO excited! I need a good day off.

Now off to find that pic of Abs and send it over to D so it makes it... I hope!

Later,
Hawk

19 February 2007

Hopechest

Toys Won't Have
Toy guns
toy knives
Toy war insturments all alike
Camoflage
Loads of plastic toys
Elmo


Toys Will Have
Wooden toys
russian blocks
Wooden Toys
imagination builders
leap frog learning systems
Books galore
Wiggles Dance pad
Signing Time

18 February 2007

Things needed for small children

So my mum and I are starting a hope chest for the children. I am looking into things needed for children, but I can't find a website with such information.

I know, it sounds silly.. but I don't want to forget something while my mum is willing to help me pay for them! lol. I know simple things, such as furniture, car seats, clothing, toys.. but is there anything that you just didn't think your child would need?

Thanks.